needs to occur, when you think things you don't need to think which draws focus from what you ought to be thinking about. Distracting thoughts that need to cease, they don't help. I need to get the system refined. Stop stop stop ahhhh. By the by, other than distracting thoughts I need to flush I am pretty good.

Fatally flawed, problem is they only come in Tea+ a flavor, no just straight Chai flavor just this unpleasantly flavored Peach, a lemon, and a red tea with berry, come on Oregon Chai, come out with plain chai not flavors you don't sell in ANY OTHER FORM!!

I give these a thumbs down.

I am worried, sad, and unmotivated for no particular reason. My gut is sensing bad things coming, is it because there are actually bad things coming? Has the bad events just gotten me accustomed to expecting bad shit to happen, am I temporarily in a good situation that I feel it is too good far what it is? I don't know I don't know I don't know

I am still feeling all that coffee I drank. Which is bad, because I need a little sleep before work. And I really didn't get any work done on the site, which is what I intended to do today, I sat, drank coffee, and read a book instead. Ugh, I am not looking forward to work tomorrow. But on the upside, I am making a checklist for life. Now that I have made it, I need to get to work on it. Starting with getting some damned sleep
I have like 3 alarms set, just in case.

get this, for the first time in a long time i am reading.... a book. i had stopped reading for fun long ago but i have decided to start again. also this is being written from my new ipaq. a fun little toy that i picked up at my company auction. so i will probably sell my old palm. any takers?

But don't want to, and Third Eye Blind is enabling me

my self control invilving things that a keep me in good habits has really diminished since I broke up.... I really need to rectify that.

But it looks good doesn't it, I am thinking about changing the ubuntu logo to the fort albert logo

I can't help that the overly religious scare me, and it is becoming more widespread the fear they cause in me.

I intended to get some things accomplished today with my site, but instead I went out to lunch, customized my desktop, installed some games, and browsed craigslist, I need to get some stuff done.

My cat melted my chocolate, and since I haven't gotten my podcasting setup right yet I will have to vent this through text, fuck the fucking FCC

Heard a funny statistic on that, of all major cities, Portland, OR was the city with the least people watching it.

Pretty close to how I feel, I want to just leave work, which doesn't really make sense because I plan on not really doing anything at home, I am at a point I want to get out of boredom into another form of boredom, with boredom at home I guess the difference is that it is more comfortable and masturbation is possible, and I suppose I can take a nap if I feel like it. Ugh I have until 3:45. One more day left.

There is someone I have been in love with for about 4 years, and I was not planning on telling them for another 6 years, but I really don't know how much longer I can hold out, plus I feel like it is damaging to other relationships I might have, by being with them but actually being in love with someone else. My last girlfriend I think knew. This is really getting to me, it is hurting my stomach. I can't say anything ppto her because I feel that my relationship transcends a boyfriend/girlfriend arrangement, and I value my relationship with her too much to even chance getting rejected. I think an actual relationship is too unstable for me with her but I know if I restrain myself I can stay her friend, and I want her to be in my life forever and I feel like this is the best way to facilitate that. But I plan on telling her when I am 30.

I am not really a card person so I don't really care if someone gets me a card or not, well no one did and that doesn't bother me, but I got one card today and of all people it is from the CEO of my company, not premade or anything a card witha handwritten note in it hand delivered by my CEO.

My happiness has suddenly depleted, need to find more.

My iPod has a very unusual glitch... I had some music paused while I was talking to a co-worker, and it started playing AC/DC. Out of nowhere, nothing was near it to hit buttons or anything, what is strange is this isn't an isolated incident, it has happened about 3 times in the last 2 weeks. it is getting strange. And it is always AC/DC. Could be worse I guess.

I am not in the mood at all to be at work this morning.

I tried drinking a Rockstar again this morning, and after not drinking energy drinks for a long long time (aside from Viso) and I am having a Rockstar Punched right now, and it either is off or I don't like the taste of Rockstar anymore.

And it sounds like someone is tapdancing in the living room. WTF?!?